Today I'm being stretched to believe I can rest in God's sovereignty with complete inactivity (on my part). Instead of working on something I need to do, God's challenging me find shelter under His wings through prayer...to be still, talk to Him and trust He is working when I am not. This is where believing God and doubting myself play tug-o-war. It makes me...
Doubt I can get this done.
Doubt I heard God right.
Doubt God's timing.
Doubt my abilities.
Satan wants us to doubt ourselves
God wants us to believe HIM! That is where we learn to live in the power of HIS promises. It's the only way to live beyond the shadow of our doubts. But it's hard when you're having a bad day. Like the one one that just culminated with a run-away dog this afternoon, and me crying 'cause I didn't think I'd find her since she didn't have her tags on her new collar.
I drove around my neighborhood and surrounding area with my windows down crying out, 'Daisy, Daaaaaaaaisy, Daiseeeeey!' And praying, 'Lord, please don't let this happen. Not now. Not Daisy. You know she'll run forever. She's a beagle whose nose will lead her to SC and she won't even know she left home. This is the last thing I need today, God. Pleeeaase help me find her.'
Finally a man who lives near us brought her home while I was out looking for her. He told mom it took a piece of bologna to get Daisy to come to him. I could've strangled that bologna-eating dog when I got home. But she was smiling and jumping on me like she'd gotten back from a friends house.
Life happens, but I sure do wish it would coordinate itself with my plans. Today was a writing day and now my brain feels like a sledge hammer is pounding on it. Why do things like this happen almost every day I block out time to write? Seriously. And can I be honest with you? It's frustrating. I can't write every day so when I can, I really need to.
Sometimes it feels like I am living in the middle of impossible.
So what do we do in the middle of impossible? First, I cling to the promise- With Christ all things are possible. I also ask God for a specific 'word' from Him to live in and a step to take.
This weekend He gave me 2Timothy 1:12b, 'For I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that He is able to guard what I've entrusted to Him for that day.'
Then today He challenged me to walk it out - to be convinced that He is able to guard what I've entrusted to Him for this day - for me it's the chapters I feel like I should be writing.
As far as a step to take, the Holy Spirit reminded that God's been nudging me to for a while to ask friends to pray for me and the message of 'A Confident Heart' and the women who will read it, until it's written. He's reminded me that the enemy is not happy about what He is up to on the pages of this book and that he will do all he can to stop me.
I am walking out 2 Tim 1:12 and now I am going to take the next step and ask some friends...
Would you'd like to be part of the 'Confident Heart' prayer team?
I think it'd be so wonderful to seek Christ' heart with you and ask Him together to make Himself famous through this book. Leah (my assistant and dear friend) and I are excited to see who God will gather with us. We'll collect names/emails to send requests and we'll also be praying for them too! To join us, leave a comment below with your email address and we'll send you updates, probably once a week. (Or email aconfidentheart@gmail.com with 'Prayer Team' in the subject line.)
I have a feeling God is writing a chapter right here in the middle of impossible today. I'd love to know if you ever feel like you are living in the middle of impossible? What are some promises or practices that help you get out of that hard place?
I love to hear from you! (and pray for you, too)
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Thank you so much for blessing me with your words of affirmation, ideas, suggestions and perspectives for the subtitle of 'A Confident Heart.' It was the best feedback I could have gotten. Random integer chose commenter #87 as the winner of the $20 giftcard, but my head hurts so bad I'm not up to counting through them at the moment so please check back here tonight, and I will list the name and link.
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